Hey everyone! It was my birthday two days ago. So I thought it would be apt to write about how turning 24 feels like being away from home. Now you must be thinking that I’m living in Canada, I must’ve partied all night and had a lot of fun. Well, that is not true. That is not even remotely true. I spent most of the day crying in my bed. And then later in the evening, I went to buy decorations for my own birthday. You see, birthdays have never been special for me. Not because I don’t like celebrating turning a year older, but because no one does anything special for me. My family wishes me and they get me what I want. My friends wish me, I mean most of them do. And that’s all. That is what my typical birthday looks like. No surprises, nothing special, no partying, no going out.

Now, I’m writing this not because I want people to feel pity for me. I’m writing because I know I’m not alone. I’m not the only one who doesn’t feel special on her birthday. I know there are people out there who feel the same way I’m feeling right now. So if you are one of those people, I see you. I feel you. And trust me when I say this, I know how this feels. It feels terrible to be crying on your birthday. It feels terrible when you want to feel special for one day of the year and your so-called friends can’t even give you that. It feels terrible. It sucks.

Now the part where it feels good. I decided to get up, get ready and go get some decorations for myself. Sometimes, you just have to show up for yourself. You have to get up and help yourself. Start by making yourself happy. And it’s okay if there’s no one for you today. Be there for yourself. Go get a cake, cut it and eat as much as you want without worrying about the calories. Show up for yourself. Trust me you will feel better!

Also, feel free to drop a comment about how you experience birthdays. I would love to hear from you.